Oct 082009
 

Ugh. I am suffering all kinds of inability to manage my time this week. This has not been helped by a decision to revisit all my account passwords and make sure there isn't any critical overlap happening. I have A LOT of internet accounts.

Neither has it been helped by Australia Post's fine efforts, which included directing me to the wrong branch to pick up my parcel, the staff at the wrong branch first telling me the parcel had not yet arrived and please to come back tomorrow and then, when I came back tomorrow, belatedly informing me to please head elsewhere. At the right branch (an expedition to find which involved maps, no less), the guy behind the desk spent a good five minutes staring at the docket and sucking on his teeth, as if committing one name and address took a prodigious effort, and at last ventured into the (closet-sized) back room (which held all of three packages) with an expression like a man looking for a needle in a haystack.

Meanwhile, I'm still stuck in the awful head-space of trying to fix the holes in the faerie novel, spurred on partly by the fact that I seem to have 70,000 odd words of (dreadful) alpha draft and no actual narrative impetus yet. This has been worrying me a bit, because if that's the 70% mark then I should be getting that rushing toward the end feeling, which has been decidedly lacking.

The solution, it turns out, is simple: obviously the novel will be about 120,000 words long and thus, I'm only just over halfway and THAT's why it feels like I've only just hit halfway. Genius! So genius that, even if it's not true, which it very probably isn't, I'm going to run with it anyway. Any lie to keep the writing going, after all.

Jul 232009
 

I've finished the first round of edits on "Shaping Lily" and sent them winging on their way back to the editor — who will doubtless send them straight back with a "Good work! You fixed exactly a drabble of the stuff that needed fixing…here's the stuff you didn't fix back again so you can have another go at that, and while we're at it here's some more!" Because edits are never done in one pass, and fixing one niggle always makes other jagged bits stand out. Writing is in the re-writing, as someone (actually probably various someones) famous has already opined.

Last night, instead of turning back to the poor oft-abandoned faerie novel as I should have done, I worked on a short story. Poor faerie novel: it has been picked up and put down so often it's surely going to have some serious continuity issues. And probably a good few narrative drive issues into the bargain. (Poor me, who will need to fix them!) All my stories get abandoned at some point, because my brain likes to switch to a different problem when I hit the middle of the story.1

Tonight… tonight I cannot decide what to work on. And I am getting distracted by Apple Dictionary only being in American English. Why is there no Australian English dictionary? Or at least a British English dictionary? I DO NOT SPEAK OR SPELL AMGLISH, APPLE.

  1. The one story which was written without any periods of abandonment, even minor ones, is Shadow Queen — although it did have its periods of stalled work while I grumbled and glared at it and muttered under my breath about recalcitrant plotlines. []
Jul 012006
 

Last night, I had all but decided to scrap the first novel, for values of scrap equalling shelving it and not bothering any more agents with a query letter for it. The reason being that, although I still love this novel as much as I ever did, it has a lot of strikes against it. Firstly, length. Did I mention it's freaking enormous? Did I mention I haven't had a novel published before, and that makes its enormosity a larger strike against it? Also, there was some daunting happening, what with the sheer number of revision issues piling up in the lee of my backbrain like rubbish in a river bend. So much to do! And not typos or scene edits, either, but large-scale structural issues.

This morning, however, there was an email in my inbox asking how I was going with it, had any good news yet? Which might not sound like much, but this wasn't an email from a close acquaintance or family member; this was from someone I've never met, who read the novel for me a couple of months ago and is genuinely hopeful that I'll manage, somehow, to sell it. Sometimes, the opinions of strangers are easier to trust than those of people closeby. And, you know, as Tess so rightly pointed out to me, trusting my own (often critical and over-analytical) thoughts on this might not be either the wisest or even the sanest path to choose.

So I've spent this afternoon revamping my query letter (for lo, the previous query letter did suck, mightily). I think I've even managed to concoct something I like, which is a little surprising. If I still like it tomorrow, I'll start sending out a handful more queries.

In the meantime, I guess it's time to start considering those revision issues more seriously.

Also? I've decided it's time to redesign the website. (In for a penny, in for a pound. Sure, I can revise a superfreakinglong novel and redesign a website and write a new novel in July. What makes you think I can't?)

Save me now. Please.

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